Lately, I’ve been hearing about, reading and witnessing so many heartaches, deaths and just a lot of pain overall. Life currently hasn’t been easy, and I can see that we’ve all been affected by something in one way or another. But what I can say is that if you get up each and everyday, your trying at least. Sometimes we can be too hard or too critical of ourselves, but we are trying. Even though at times it seems like everything is crashing like a ton of bricks and we just can’t seem to bare it anymore. If I’ve learned anything thus far in my 33 years of life, it’s to NEVER GIVE UP.
A few days ago, I met a lovely woman who spoke to me about her struggles and difficulties that she’s experienced over this past year. She’s torn because she’s leaving her current home to relocate and live with her parents as she tries to recovery and win her fight to cancer. As we chatted for a bit, she was telling me how disappointed she was with herself because at her age she didn’t see this life for herself. She wasn’t too thrilled to move back home and live with her parents. Not that she wasn’t or isn’t happy to see her family, but thats not where she physically wants to be. She imagined her life looking different. She saw herself married, with kids possibly, and both her and her spouse would be growing and building their lives together. But instead, life hit her hard. She was diagnosed with Cancer, and she’s been receiving Chemotherapy treatments this entire year. I definitely felt for her. Even though, there are various forms of Cancer out there, I’ve dealt with it personally in my family and with close friends. I currently have a friend whose fighting for her life right now with stage 4 cancer. Life is never easy. But I keep on hearing that God gives his strongest soldiers the toughest battles because he knows that they can and will grow and become even stronger from it. I still struggle with this statement. Because it’s something I’m still trying to understand and grasp every single day. When we hear about death, when we hear about life threatening illnesses, heartache– I ask God why did he have to take away our loved ones so soon? What is the lesson we need to learn through all this pain and turmoil. Our conversation continued as we both saw and realized we were wearing the same evil eye and hamsa macrame bracelets. Which symbolizes protection, safety and warding off evil spirits. It only goes to show how faith has been a strong presence in both our lives in all forms.
This has been a tough year to say the least for me. Some days have been harder than most, but what I can say is that I’m still alive through the grace of God, patience and my faith. I try and continue to remain strong and positive as best as I can. Even though it’s all definitely been tested time and time again. The woman I met, she said she’s learned a lot in this time as she heals and tries to fight her battle with Cancer. She said what this has taught her is to have faith but most importantly patience. That resonated with me a lot, because that’s what I’ve learned as well. Faith doesn’t make anything in life easy, but it makes it possible. We might not receive the answers or signs right away or when we want immediately, but we must continue to have faith and we must be patient. Even though we haven’t seen yet. We must walk by faith and not by sight. Because with faith and patience anything is possible. I, too have had my share of battles and hardship like many of us.
In the latter half of 2017, I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis. It’s a rare condition that effect woman typically late in their childbearing years but can occur at any age. Sometimes there aren’t any visible signs of the condition. Many times it can go unnoticed for years. Having been diagnosed with this, my faith, my strength and patience has definitely been tested. It’s definitely taught me a lot about my own personal strength, my faith and patience. At times I found myself lost, and just wondering , why…. It made me question a lot of things, including something that’s been very important to be which is my faith. I’ve always wanted to have a children, to have a family in general. This post has been hard for me to write, because I’ve had my share of pain and hardship with experiencing various miscarriages. The excitement to carry your own child and feel it growing inside you then have that taken away all of a sudden is beyond any words I can express. So needless to say, its been a difficult road to conceiving and also carrying to term, but it doesn’t mean that there isn’t hope that I won’t be able to. I haven’t lost hope which is what I’m essentially saying. I’ve weighed all the options, done my research and sought out various opinions from Medical professionals. I know many women struggle with infertility every single day. But if you read and do your research about the condition, seek out your options, and get the proper care it doesn’t mean that it isn’t possible. I just also found out that Gabrielle Union was also diagnosed with this condition as well. She’s struggled with infertility for years and many doctors couldn’t pinpoint what was wrong until now. But she has said that even having this condition, this will not stop her journey in trying to have her own children. ( To learn more about Gabrielle Union, journey with Infertility click here). When the time is right and God blesses me or any other women with this condition, with a child, I know that it’s not only a miracle but God’s will and his doings. Remember to do your research, know that with having this condition, if you do get pregnant, it’s perfectly safe to carry a child. Get all the facts and don’t be misinformed. What I’ve learned about my condition, is that having a child can help me in my situation, but I leave it in Gods hands to heal me completely. Where I no longer have this tumor growing inside of me and blessed with a healthy, loving and happy family.
Living with Adenomyosis hasn’t been easy. It’s been a tough road so far, but I’m not going to let this beat me. I’m going to fight through this. I know God, my guardian Angels, family and friends have been supporting me with their love and prayers since day one. I believe in miracles so I’m going to continue to pray, have faith and have patience. This won’t beat me, and I know one day the blessings of a family, will come it’s just all in God’s hands. Going back to my conversation with the woman I met, the important and key words that came out of that conversation were to continue to: stay positive, have faith and have patience. No matter what life throws at us, we must continue to have faith, have patience and remain positive. I know it’s definitely easier said than done but trying is half the battle. When you try and when you believe your half way there.
I know with continued prayers, faith, and patience, I know God can create miracles. We may not understand it now, but I can only hope everything will fall into place and make sense eventually. We just have to keep the faith and the positive vibes flowing. Every situation is different and I know it can definitely be worse. So, I still continue to count my blessings and thank God every single day. Gratitude is everything. Something we need to always remember.
So if you follow me on Instagram (@SocialFashionistaBeauty) I’m sure you’ve noticed a lot of my post and stories related to faith, staying positive and being patient. Along with being kind and to never stop believing. Although I have strong passion for all things beauty, style and lifestyle, faith is a huge component in my life as well. So as I remain in my faith and keep my positive thoughts flowing I love sharing that positive energy and the Lord’s word with you all to carry you through your days as well. We all need any and all forms of resources for hope, faith and positivity so I’m happy to share and pass it along to all of you.
Jumpsuit: A New Day | Jewelry: Chloe and Isabel | Evil Eye and Hamsa Macrame Bracelets: Anthropologie | Clutch: Givenchy (Currently on SALE) |Shoes: Birkenstocks; Tahari (old) Similar | Sunglasses: Karen Walker
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The strongest people aren’t those that show strength in front of us, but those that fight and win battles we know nothing about. We are all fighting a battle each and everyday. Even when the days can and seem so dim, and you feel like giving up , DON’T. Be kind, have faith, have patience, and never stop believing. Faith doesn’t make things easy, it makes them possible.
To all those fighting battles, experiencing tough times, hardships, heartaches, pain, and struggle remember to have faith and patience. God is with us all. Continue to pray, stay positive and never lose hope. Believe in miracles and fight for what you want and believe in.
You are all in my thoughts and prayers. As always, thanks for reading along, following and supporting my journey.